La vita nuova

This episode is normal, regular in length and content. Nothing excels about it except that it is part of the chain, the flow or river of my podcasts that are configuring themselves quite naturally these days. Women like to think of us men as if we knew the answer to everything or at least they look at us like this. But after a rather »sharp« episode (as they say in chess about an equalized position, yet with dangers and challenges for both sides) like number 6 I need to calm down and especially to my lovers demonstrate that I do not know everything and can maybe never be that great man they were dreaming of in their highest imaginative worlds and hopes. But at least I can keep doing what I do, podcasting, only that this is so hard because it makes it seem like I was someone special while I just want to be an arbitrary piece of the socialist puzzle, the big entanglement of society, all of us. With these love codes, the sharp declarations of deep affection and yearning for you, I might make you fall in love a bit, but also myself, because the words never lose their power even if you already knew them and were capable of thinking them, they assume a wholly different power when spoken. But this is not real love, it has to at least have a minimal materialistic base. In the next days we can hopefully resort to this base like talking or spending time together. This might seem like a huge step, but in fact I think the hardest part is over and it is going to be genuine as always with you.
This crazy love talk here already is the greatest thing we have ever done, but this includes also all the preparation, our delightful exchanges and it doesn’t have to remain this way, there could be even greater things, if you show me the way.